4 years ago, I was living in Spain, trying to figure out what was next after leaving behind an era just a year back. Unsure where I was going after college, that epochal, glorious, all encompassing joyous time at university in California.
Living in Spain, I spent a lot of time twiddling my thumbs with these kids of Friday Night Lights, who live on the brink of limitless future, but look back with nostalgia at a strangely sad and glorious past, always wondering, wondering what will be, and what was.
So I can relate, when Tyra starts out her speech her saying 2 years ago….I say 4 years ago now. But back then, I wasnt sure.
But now, Im proud to say, Ive made another life. A life epoch to rival and join the club with the California university days. The glory of my life in Chile. The words the art the people the lovers the streets the apartments the people, oh always the people. It has been epoch making.
And yet, now I’m back at that same brink. Looking back at this glory I’m so proud of, yet seeing into the future, wondering whats next, hoping, hoping for a new and wonderful horizon. And most importantly. Seeing with joy it will come, that everything of the last 4 years is holy, and gives birth to more, to that next step into the sun of the future….I love you Chile.
Listening toTyras speech, and looking back at these 3 years, I realize how much Ive accomplised, since I looked forward from Spain with curiosity of what life would become. How much Ive suprised myself, how much Ive seen the world, how I’ve learned to lose and get over it….Now I look out again with hope. I cant wait to start another essay with 3 years ago….that next time around.
But for now, the last 3 have been holy. Thank you for this window into the future, 4 years ago FNL. We go on with the same dreams, once again, as I close this door, and the next door opens.
quoting Tyras speech (better audio here: http://www.hark.com/clips/lflvdpqzwq-tyras-college-essay)
Two years ago, I was afraid of wanting anything. I figured wanting would lead to trying and trying would lead to failure. But now I find I can’t stop wanting. I want to fly somewhere on first class. I want to travel to Europe on a business trip. I want to get invited to the White House. I want to learn about the world. I want to surprise myself. I want to be important. I want to be the best person I can be. I want to define myself instead of having others define me. I want to win and have people be happy for me. I want to lose and get over it. I want to not be afraid of the unknown. I want to grow up and be generous and big hearted, the way people have been with me. I want an interesting and surprising life. It’s not that I think I’m going to get all these things, I just want the possibility of getting them. College represents possibility. The possibility that things are going to change. I can’t wait.
